Beloved ~ Lots of intense energies have
been coming through since the solstice (intense energies, this feels like such
a familiar phrase :-) ) especially last week…. wowsers! And I’m reminding you that each of us experiences
the energies differently. For some of you these latest waves were 'no big deal' and for
some of us – it was just - Turning things inside out - What has been inside, in my
subconscious, unconscious, buried, what I didn’t want to/couldn’t acknowledge or
especially what I didn’t
want to FEEL......was revealed……. And there was no ‘escape’. And we were
feeling the discomfort!
It is our personal stuff that’s up for releasing
and transforming, and also alot of what we are experiencing and feeling is the
collective -
humanity's
discomforts turned inside out..... the fear, the uncertainty, anxiety, anger,
rage, guilt, shame, pain, the limitations, dramas, stories and the traumatic
experiences that we have not yet processed and moved through. And we had
no place to hide…..
Some had a clear understanding of what needed to
be looked at or felt and some just felt uggghhhhh and grrrrrrrhhhh....
Whatever you've been working on or need to work
on, acknowledge and especially allow your self to FEEL - the Light of Divine
Love was shining on it and it felt uncomfortable. Our pain was showing
itself so that we would finally stop denying what we are feeling. Our
insides were turned out and revealed to us.
So this is what I first wrote about my
discomforts during the week: For all ‘the work’ I’ve done…..I still
notice the resistance, the no, the self judgment and the thinking that I should
be doing something differently so this wouldn’t be happening, the ‘trying to
fix’ and understand what my mind could not get clarity on……. instead of simply allowing
the discomfort, leaning in and saying yes…... I did not experience my
self as the sun, watching deeply penetrating storms passing through, as I continued
to be the sun….. aka resting as Presence Awareness.
And at midweek I said forget all this spiritual
stuff – I’m just going to rent a couple of movies and chill….so chill and laugh
I did. Probably the best thing I could have done to get me out of my ego
self and my human mind. (Oh yes….”now” I’m remembering the suggestion that
doing things that place us in joy is the most beneficial thing we can do. Some
part of me did remember that wisdom……)
And you know what…allowing me to write to you
allows me to see what a BS story I have going about how I was during this
discomfort. How I continue to ‘judge’ me as not there yet…… Grace and Love
don’t require a 100% improvement and change of response in order to bring in
the Grace & The Love. TRUTH - I’ve changed a lot and so have
you. TRUTH – Through the turbulence I was less resistant, more feeling,
more allowing, more self compassionate – JUST LIKE YOU! Yay
us! And the gifts of this latest wave of LoveLight are now rolling in for
me -
As I look back to last week I see that
as my insides were turned to the outside, as my ‘stuff’ was coming up….. as my
vibration was shifting….. at the same time a GIFT of such TREMENDOUS GRACE was
coming in… Of course during the turbulence I just couldn’t see what this was
all for, what was being prepared behind the scenes. It’s like climbing to
the top of the mountain and passing through storms that block your visibility
and make it uncomfortable along the way… and when it clears and you get to the
magnificent vistas….it’s so worth it.
At the end of this uncomfortable week I
experienced what I realize now was such GRACE. I had the MOST AMAZINGLY
authentic conversation with someone who is very close to me. This
conversation had been rumbling around in me for a while and finally the pieces
were in place for it to happen in the most magical and authentic way. It
just unfolded. I was true to me and I spoke without the sugarcoating and
holding back dance that I usually do…. The discomfort I experienced
earlier in the week seemed to be shaking things up and setting things in place
so that I could finally have this conversation which allowed me to bring forth
my truth, my wisdom and my heart.. full on. The words just kept coming, the
honesty just kept rolling out….
The release and the healing for me came
from finally speaking my truth – AND being with someone who could hear me and
receive me ….. though I wasn’t sure how they would respond. There was a
‘fear’ that if I spoke my truths I would loose this person. And the exact
opposite happened. Sometimes it works like this, and sometimes it doesn’t….
sometimes the relationship does complete. Either way it is Grace.
What was so different for me is that a
part of me has danced very hard trying to figure out how to speak without
offending or upsetting the other. And now I see I have recovered another part
of me…..under the fear and the mask was my authentic voice, this voice that is
clear, honest, vulnerable, wise and loving. Now some of you may be
surprised at how I have just described my fear and my mask because many of you
reading this already saw a part of me that was authentic, wise and
loving.…..and you also don’t know how much I have not had my voice – just like
you. It’s funny writing these Miri Messages. I never know where
they are going to end up.
I learned well ~ how to mask my true
voice, how to dance around what I really wanted to say because of all the
fears, beliefs, stories and conditioning that were there ….. how to not feel
what I was feeling. I know some of you can appreciate my sharing about
not being able to speak your truth. And for others of you, no matter how
honest you think you are – look again….. what parts of you are you still
hiding? Be Tender with your self please….remember you had to hide parts
of your self for your survival, safety, for love……
And this week…..the rumblings seem to come and go….and
I notice that I AM able to choose to rest in Presence more than ever
before. A worrisome thought arises – I breathe deeply and choose another
thought …… It is a miracle, and it’s available for you. Everything
is an opportunity to return to Divine Alignment….everything, only
everything. More and more conscious choice is available……..
I
am here to support you during these shifts and changes. I offer you
Compassionate Presence, Intuitive Guidance and Energy Therapies to support your
moving through and beyond your pains, struggles and stories, into the Light and
Grace of your True Self. Please contact me to set up your
appointment.
Save
the date for the next LIVING GRACE and EVERY DAY MIRACLES WORKSHOP –
Sunday, July 28 ….and guess what it will be about:
THE
GIFTS OF HONESTY & AUTHENTICITY – Speaking your Truth, Acknowledging your
True Feelings
I See You and I Love You, all of you
Miri
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