9/27  Intense Equinox Energies Subsiding

 

Beloved~    As always, I share these words with you in the hopes that you find support and encouragement and realize that you are not alone when it feels like you may have lost your way.  I’ve lost sense of time…..was it this crazy before the Fall Equinox?  Did it get even more intense for you around the Equinox and this whole week?  I feel like it has now begun to settle back down.  I remember writing last year that this would be the year of emotion clearing and healing.  Well……no mistakes about this.  Whatever energies just opened for us….seems they found and we got snagged on any and all rough edges, sometimes the ones you thought you had already finished with.  Surprise, surprise.   Or not : -).  Seems we are done when we are done and that we have absolutely no say in what will show up for exploration and release. You mean we are releasing control too!  

I AM Purity – and if this is Truth…..then all these uncomfortable feelings and thoughts are a product of my choosing a human experience.  They are not the truth of who I AM…..why continue to believe them…….believe what they appear to say about me……and sometimes I still get hijacked by them.. 

I found my self talking to my self about feelings this week.  I was in Charlotte NC with my family, looking for a new home, looking to make some spiritual/business connections.  Fear, excitement, doubt and more…...  Excitement is easy to allow and embrace.  Fear and worry….my self talk at times was:  “Yes, I can feel this. Yes, I can allow this to be as it is as best I can…. or notice when I’m hijacked.”   

Allow, Notice.    I don’t want to talk my self out of how I’m feeling. I don’t want to compare or explain ad nauseum.  I just want to allow … and I CAN feel these feelings of fear, anxiety, doubt, helplessness now.  Sometimes I can remember to move out of my head and the monkey mind thinking and notice the sensations and contractions in my body.   I see that I don’t collapse or always respond like I did before when I had similar experiences and feelings.  Yes…..I can allow my self to feel now…..  I can check in with my body, find the tightness and contractions and breathe and allow….Sensations and vibrations moving through and out.  

And I’m remembering to be tender with me…..tender with that part of me that is scared. I absolutely love being tender with my self.  

Allowing our selves to feel opens us to life in such a different way.  I’m not closed in, shut down, ‘protecting’ my self, cut off from the flow of life and energies.  I’m opening up more and more and I AM  receiving the fullness and multi textured richness of life as I discover that I can allow my feelings….. And now, I discover that I can watch them….. body tight and contracting or sensations  just moving through without the labels of good or bad, acceptable or not.  BREATHE, BREATHE,  BREATHE.  And sometimes I can watch (the observer) my mind making up all kinds of explanations about what is going on around me that actually caused the fear to begin. It’s a ‘beginning’ for me with this type of deeper watching.  You can do it too because we’re experiencing the same contracted limited human self that is cracking open to reveal our True Self.  Look how much you’ve changed these 6 months!!!  Really - YOU – Look how you have changed!   

And I can promise you that the energies that are coming in after this turbulence ARE TOTALLY AMAZING…..       We will have opportunities to realize what has been cleansed from us by GRACE.

Ex – My office is overflowing everywhere (I know, no comments and judgements please) with all the stuff I have to tend to, organize, let go of.  I realize that I have to clean out my files…..and I’ve done so many workshops…..I didn’t want to look at those files from years past and let go….. of that me…..who I was then….. that created them……I wanted to take everything with me when I move and start my new life in Charlotte NC.  I ‘need’ this stuff from my past : -) 

Grace & Miracle – I just felt the realization last eve that I AM ready to go through my files lovingly and release what I have done & completed…..  Just like that the knowing came.  I know that I am now being prepared for, not the next chapter of my life – I’m starting a new book.  JUST LIKE YOU!   A NEW LIFE   I don’t need to bring the past with me.  I will absolutely have everything I need to create new and wonderful messages, workshops, classes in Charlotte and beyond. You too will have everything you need to create your new life.   I FEEL the readiness and excitement. Do you?  I didn’t want to think about clearing out my office before.  This evening I had the thought – I’m ready to go through the papers in the office.  WOW – so again…..watch for the gifts coming now after these turbulent equinox energies …..GRACE……simply because YOU ARE SO LOVED.  We are all leaving our past behind.  OPEN to receiving all the energies and supports for you to create your life/heart’s dreams.   

It is our time now…..truly – to live our hearts’ knowing and dreams….. We will live them into this reality.  It’s what you came here for.  Stop playing small…..dare and leap for that is your truer nature – YOU ARE CREATORS.  Discover that you can have your hearts’ dreams.  Discover a world that you secretly ‘hoped’ would be there for you…….  YOU ARE SO LOVED.  Thank you…..thank you for being here, for staying the course…..SHINE BRIGHTLY NOW.  YOUR TWINKLES ARE UNIQUE AND MAGNIFICENT AND WE NEED THEM.  Please keep twinkling!  Come and see me for some support before I leave for N Carolina end of October.  Soul Infusion and Divine Alignment, Reiki, Spiritual Coaching will help you so much more easily shift your perspectives and release and balance your energies so that you too can live Magic, Miracles & Grace with Ease ~

I AM in Love with YOU
Miri

 

9/11/2013  Spider Web & Another Video - I Feel Therefore I AM Part 2

 

Beloved~

 What’s going on behind the curtain? We all want to SEE what’s going on, see the proof that the universe is actually for us…..show me!!!  Show me that I can let go, show me that I can trust,  that everything is actually working out perfectly and okay, and that I will be fine.   Sometimes I still have those thoughts…..and today I have this reminder.

The sun pours in through the window in my office in the late afternoon.  I pull the curtain closed so I can be more comfortable.  It’s been a couple of days and what a surprise when I pulled the curtain back and my eyes saw what the sunlight was now illuminating.  First I noticed a big ugly spider…..then on second glance I saw that the spider had woven a huge 2 foot web in front of the window.   It’s beautiful…and it is reminding me that behind the curtain, much construction is going on….much is happening even though we can’t see it.  Please trust some more….. please allow…. breathe…… go and play…… there is no need to worry (not that worry ever helps anyone) because behind the scenes much is being created and constructed….just for you!!!  No need to worry.  More and more every day I can feel the peace and the joy and the love.  More and more every day I can shift into these vibrations.  I was at the front desk at the gym the other day and it was pretty stressful…..at some point someone asked how I was.I noticed my spontaneous reply – I’m stressed and I’m great.  Both ~ And     

Choose to live Peace~Choose to keep your heart open.

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My goodness…..so much resistance to posting my video on youtube for you.  Can I smile…..can I be gentle with these energies of resistance……can I breathe deeply…..detach just a little. 

Smile

 

Be Gentle with your self about what is showing up…..

Breathe Deeply

Can you detach and back up just a little bit and not take it so personally.  Can we remember to be like the sun and just watch the clouds come and go.

Repeat this sequence several times until your vibration has magically shifted : -)  …… or not!!!  If not, then you have something to look at……then you can ask – please show me what it is that I am not seeing clearly here.  Let go – do not go looking for the answer with your limited human mind.  Allow Your Divine Self/Presence to bring you what you need to understand differently.  Go play while construction is happening behind the curtains.    Oh, I just watched the video – I really like it!  I hope you do too.  Thanks for watching and being here with me.

I Feel Therefore I AM part 2      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rm16xIQBh0c         (remember to let it start and run about 10 seconds, press pause and wait a couple of minutes and then let it run so it plays through easily : -)  

I AM in Love with YOU

Miri

Beloved ~  I Feel Therefore I AM

 

Do we really have a choice about what we are feeling? Descartes said "I think therefore I am." Even though I have a very active mind, I would have to say that my emotions and feelings have often held me captive.... hence, I feel, therefore I am. AND I see that with all the energy shifts unfolding, things are different now and I very often actually do have a choice about being hijacked by my feelings - or not. I do have a choice about being hijacked and entangled - or not! Sometimes : -) …and more and more often now.

I’m feeling a funny bit of scared and some excitement because I am being carried by this energy of ‘make videos and post them on youtube’. 

 

I hope you find these videos as supportive, loving and informative as the written messages…..catalysts to support you in your evolution. The only constant is change and so come join me on my Magic Carpet ride.

This video is about I feel, therefore I am.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rm16xIQBh0c

 

  **Please press play and let it go for about 10 seconds. Then hit pause and let the entire video upload….a few minutes. Then hit play again. This will allow your computer to play it all the way through without the stops and starts. I know the volume is soft....I'm working on it : -). 

Love I AM

Miri

 

 

9/3/2013

I was sitting on the floor in my office this morning and I glanced over……at this printed page from a Miri Message that ‘happened’ to be on the floor next to me.  It felt right to share it with you again.  Written 1 ¾ years ago…..and the message is still so appropriate. 

The Jewish New Year begins tomorrow eve.  May we live Namaste’~  The Divine in Me sees The Divine in You, as You.  “I Am God is not blasphemy.  It is your identity.”  Wayne Dyer.

I AM in Love with You
Miri 

12/1/2012  Beloved~

I was reading a message from Beyond Awakenings….and  reading the lineup of the teachers/leaders/gurus that would be speaking and I had this thought– please let’s be done with that.  

By that, I mean what we’ve all be doing - looking to find just the right teacher with just the right message that allows us to release all the misunderstandings and pain we’ve been holding onto.  I listen to them too….and they do help me remember and also some of these teachers, like Panache Desai, carry such a beautiful high heart vibration that by simply listening, your vibration and consciousness is changed and raised.  And then we turn a corner and it seems that our old life in the here and now comes back….though not in the same old way!  Again please honestly look and see how much you have changed! 

 

I digress…….because what I want to share is that the very best medicine is to discover that within you, Love is and has always been.  Actually, the medicine we’re searching for isn’t the most correct method or the latest teaching or the love and acceptance from another….  the Love and Acceptance of your self by your Self.   

Go within……honor what is there.  No one knows your truth, your reasons for all the experiences you’ve had……. as you do.  You do have the keys and the solutions to unlock the doors you have fastened shut and purposefully denied yourself access to….until just the right Divine Holy Moment which, if you’re reading this……is Now, My Beloved.    

It is time now…..for you to stay in Your Divine Lane ….ReDiscover, ReClaim and BE YOU. Fall in Love with You.  Remembering that we are all holy manifestations playing here ….  No matter who and what we appear as….still pushing each others buttons…. triggering each other to remembering that we are not our reactive responses…….we ARE HOME, THE LIGHT DIVINE. 

Nothing is what is seems to be, nothing is as your human mind would understand it.  That which is irritating you (a little or a lot!)  is helping you to break apart and burst open…. to reveal Golden Light such as you have not experienced until now…….   That which is still irritating you, is like the pearl in the oyster…..all that irritation….. it is to gift you with the pearl of Magic, Miracles and such Grace.  

So please be patient with your human self and its limitations, its irritations, its tendency to self blame and judge….to resist and whatever else it does.  It is NOT about you Beloved.  Does the magnificent beautiful pearl forming in the oyster have any idea what all that irritation is really about, what it is about to become (just like the caterpillar transforming into the butterfly).  Again remember please that your human mind is limited (by design) and therefore it is not able to see the bigger picture that is unfolding.

Each time I am about to birth yet another pearl…..each time I find my self in this closed dark shell, experiencing all these thoughts, feelings and irritations, urrgggh……   I see that I just can’t not be irritated.  Of course – and I’m smiling now as I type these words.  While truly it has gotten easier and faster - this time that we need to spend in the dark and fertile tomb….. the tomb that is actually a womb……the tomb becomes the womb where I give birth to an ever greater expanded creative life – 

Irritation is a holy facet of this human experience – Irritation is what brings forth the pearl in the oyster’s shell. It is the searing fire that destroys …so that the phoenix may rise from the ashes.  So it’s ok, it’s perfect…..please stop judging your self…..can you open your arms just a little bit and embrace your self…..and maybe a little more, for your self…… 

After my return from my wonderful family Thanksgiving gathering on the beach in warm sunny Ft Lauderdale, I surprisingly found my self crying ….crying from a very deep place and I just allowed the sobs to come up and release ….. I love the feelings of release and expansion that always follows these deep sobs.  I know these profound releases that come in the form of deep sobbing are cracking open the oyster’s shell…..   

Nothing is as it appears.  Nothing happens the way my personality would expect.   We are all experiencing ourselves now as even more sensitive, more aware, more centered, more peaceful, more joy, more allowing…… and more of our 'stuff’ is still coming up ….yes, we’re learning to live and allow all of it – …….. perfect and a little crazy making you might say!   

All those around us ….. every one we are worried about, pissed at, irritated with……each one is here to serve us in the grandest ways…..bringing us the greatest gifts.   

Breathe deeply……allow as best you can…….do what you need to do to care for you……be tender with you……watch how you talk to you…….. as we move more deeply into the energies of 12-12-12 and the solstice…..we are being bathed and rewired for delivery into The Promised Land.  It’s all about you Beloved…… You are The Divine LoveLight you have been waiting for.  It’s in you…..now….. and it is everyone around you….now.  Holy  Blessed  BEing ~ 

Loving You

Miri

August 27     Monkey Mind Judge  -   A Miri Message

Beloved~

I sit on the edge of the river bank, the river of life……  I sit on the edge of the river bank…..the water ripples and flows by….

 Shall I enter…..    I sit…..

 I watch the water flowing……..  It is lovely, enticing…..  I notice a deep hesitation to move, to let go and step into this flowing river of life.   I sit.   Is it fear?

 

I sit on the edge of the river bank.   I dip my toes into the water and then I pull them out, pulling my feet and my whole body back up onto dry land. 

 Is It Me that is holding me back……or is it The Timeless, The Great Mystery that is holding me there, still …..

And then at the perfect Divine Moment I see that there is an easy letting go; there is movement now…. Entering the flowing river once again… in Divine Time….  

What was all that monkey mind chatter judging my sitting on the river bank… thoughts telling me that I should be doing something already….. doing something different already.  Judgment.   Doubt.  All that mind stuff.  While all along The Divine Is in its perfect Knowing and Timing…..  

It IS SHE who holds me in place until the perfect Divine Moment.   It is always SHE who gently eases me down off the river bank. 

Monkey Mind Judge……..I see you.  And I surrender to that greater Knowing of Divine Time and Moment….the perfect Flow, Harmony, Happenings and Integration of All of Life.  MonkeyMindJudge… Ah, it’s okay…..I don’t pay you any more notice now…..don’t give you any more of my energies.  

May we give ourselves permission to pause, when it is the time for pausing….   remembering and knowing that we will be moved….and only moved when it is time for moving…    Can we relax just a little ….. remembering that knowing ……

And can we be in joy……. can we choose joy ….. in the midst of all this…..

I AM in Love with You

Miri

Tuesday, July 16  

MIRI MESSAGE:  Father Issues ~ The Unraveling Continues~               

    
Grace is – touching the pain, feeling, without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again AND then this Grace delivers you a new canvas.  And it is a blank canvas….at last   you don’t have to live from your limitations, fears, traumas any more.  ….. you are ready to live from your True Divine Self – free, joyous, unlimited!

 

Beloved~  How can I create and hold a space of tenderness, wisdom, vulnerability and healing for you, if I haven’t gone in to the depths and my ‘stuff’my self…..with honesty,  allowing,  willingness,  and feeling the emotions that are coming up as best I can.  And so yesterday I was taken deep down into the shadows of my issues around control and the pain of having a dad who was of the generation of “I’m the dad so just do what I say.” …… of feeling invisible, not being truly heard, not feeling cared about or seen for who I was, not understanding what I was needing, not being allowed to take the time I needed for something…………fill in your blanks here. .  ((Please read on – this all does end with a very precious and wonderful gift!! And this is not about feeling sorry for me…..if you feel tender…..please feel tender towards your self if this is touching something in you))  

So yesterday I realized that a friend was pushing my control buttons…..I felt somehow like I was being pushed to do something I wasn’t sure I wanted to do……  And the Knowing was that this wasn’t about what was going on in the present moment with her.  There was something deep and ancient in me …….about feeling controlled and powerless, maybe helpless too…..being manipulated into doing something.  Ah, the victim…… but this is not the time for intellectual overlays.  This was a time to simply be present to exactly what I was feeling. 

I happened to be on the phone with a dear friend who was able to listen and I felt safe with her to go deeper……  I asked out loud – what is this controlling stuff really about and the next words that came out of my mouth were – oh, this is about my dad and his controlling, sometimes angry and insensitive ways.  My dad - I remembered our last conversation before he left this world…..  I was 15 and he was getting ready to drive back to work and he said – ‘Oh, you’re off next week – you’ll come into the store and help me out.  And I replied No……  And we argued back and forth…..him trying to control and enforce, me resisting and rebelling.  He left saying something like we’ll see about that.   Our last words….. He died in a car accident that night. 

Having done my share  of therapy, EFT and healing inner child work, as I was sharing and processing with my friend yesterday…… I was drawn to connect with the little girl in me.  There are many aspects of ourselves we each hold.  This one was the age of a toddler.  And  I saw/felt  how she was so sad, overwhelmed and distraught with my dad’s manner of parenting.   

And I saw how this ‘control issue’ has so deeply colored my life. “Please see me.  Stop trying to just control me. You don’t see me.  I am invisible to you.   Stop telling me what to do.   Stop being so angry.”  Seeing and connecting with the feelings and the deep struggles and pain around ‘being controlled and not being seen’… Deep sobs arose as I cried out AS that little girl – “see me, why don’t you see me, why cant you see me, …. “   I allowed the pain I had buried to simply come up, move through me, up and out.  And within maybe 5 minutes the crying and shouting was completed…..  

 

I felt the quiet inside of my self……I felt lighter and more expanded.  I know I had not just taken the lid off for a bit.  This was not a bandaid….I knew I had released some deep big stuck ‘trauma’ and allowed energy and light and love to flow once more.    

Grace is – allowing and touching the pain, feeling, just touching the hem of the garment…….without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again …..and allowing Grace to unravel the threads and do most of the healing~

For self preservation, the walls go up and my walls were constructed of I won’t let you in….because it’s too painful to let you in.  I could sense the swords pointing out from my abdomen and belly areas.  And in keeping the pain and the controlling person out, I saw how I also kept the love out,….. and all the energies of life could not flow through me, as they were designed to.  And I also became ‘the controller” of my life, of others…….  And that’s another ‘story’.    

We all have our coping mechanisms that ultimately limit us and we end up with unsatisfying patterns in friendships, work and partnerships….   We yearn for more, for something different……to feel connection and connected and we are so closed up….  These structures have served us to now.  And we are being given the Gracefilled opportunity to release and allow ourselves to be transformed.   

Grace is – touching the pain, feeling, without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again AND then this Grace delivers you a new canvas.  And it is a blank canvas….finally you don’t have to live from your limitations, fears, traumas any more.  ….. you are ready to live from your True Divine Self – free, joyous, unlimited!

 

More of my walls and structures were collapsing yesterday.  The swords were dissolving. The unraveling of this core issue around control continued today…..and I know and trust in my Being that I am being completely gifted with the opportunity to finish this, and to experience and embody Grace.  Just like you…….  And I am so grateful for the ones who trigger me, who bring up my pain and confusion……unexpected, yet by Divine Appointment…….so that I can allow, feel embrace my self and transmute. 

I wish to walk undefended, open and honest and transparent in this world….allowing my Light and Love to shine as brightly as possible.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to release what I have been holding through so many lifetimes.  Just like you…….

I wanted you to know a little bit more about me……   Our stories and pain are so tender.  My experiences and pain allow me to offer you Compassionate Presence and Deep Listening…..so transforming……  I’m here for you.  Please come and see me…..you can come for a private session if the Living Grace Workshop doesn’t feel right.   You’re ready to be done with holding this pain, I know.  I will also help you connect with the little girl/boy who has been living in fear and easily teach you how to become the loving, totally present, listening  and attending parent they did not have…..   Discover how listening, truly listening and seeing your inner child is what is needed for healing to take place.  Grace awaits

What would it be like to become undefended to the flow of life……

Live in yes……thank you……. transparent…….Loving Grace
I See You, and I AM in Love with You
Miri

 

 

July 14   Beloved~

Part 1 – Easy Ways to Help Prepare Your Self for the Waves      

Part 2 - We’re always in the waves. 

 

1- EASY WAYS TO HELP PREPARE YOUR SELF FOR THE WAVES - 

It doesn’t seem to be that these influxes of energies will be stopping any time soon.  You can strengthen your Divine Connection during the easier in between periods and this will help you when you feel like you are freefalling, as you are changing from the caterpillar to the butterfly, from the carbon based human to crystalline/Christ energies.  Everything is already here for us……   Shift your vibration; shift your attention. 

Here are some suggestions:

 

1- Do the things that bring you joy.  This will balance your energies and actually changes the chemistry in your body, from all the stress stuff to the feel good stuff.

2- Spend time in nature.  If you can’t get outside then just google nature images.  It works! 

3- Play with puppies, kittens, babies.   Notice how much better and lighter you feel.  It’s all vibration…..and this will change yours so easily! 

4- Do something different.  Break the chain, even if it is taking a different route to the store.  It’s just a habit, and it’s a neural pathway. Doing something different also puts you in a ‘different opportunities’ mindset.

5-Appreciate the good.  They say we are hardwired to remember the painful and sad.  We actually need to consciously stop and spend some time savoring the good.

6-It’s worth repeating – Be in Gratitude as much as you can whenever you can. Find things to be grateful for; they are everywhere.  This one practice will change your life in ways we call ‘miracles’.

7- Hang out with people who make you feel good.  “Re-examine what you have been told.  Dismiss what offends your soul.”  Walt Whitman.  Give your self permission to stop hanging out with people who don’t feel good to be around, who aren’t supportive, who actually bring you down.

8- Meditate

9-Cultivate listening to your body and what it wants.  Cultivate listening to your emotions – they are messengers. Emotions may not be Highest Truth…..but they definitely are truths and messengers for each of us.   Cultivate listening to you and following through with what you need. 

10-The ego/mind’s job is to categorize, to protect, to analyze incoming information….all based on its/your past experiences and your beliefs.  It puts things into categories of good and bad, safe or not etc based on its history.  Sounds limiting, doesn’t it. 

Some describe the ego as a verb – it is either grasping for something or rejecting and resisting.  Look – wow, it’s true.  Higher Mind is open, curious, allowing. 

Open to Divine Mind. Simply ask to open……

11- Ask for assistance.  If you believe in angels, ask them for help with whatever you would like. Explore your resistance to receiving and play with receiving instead of always being in the safe seat of giving.  Receiving is more vulnerable….and you don’t have ‘the controls’  …..  Trust me, I know this one so well……

12- Smile – it sets off a set of chemical reactions in the body that are the feel good chemicals.   Try it…..see if you don’t feel different.

13- I love the Access Consciousness questions – “What Else is Possible?  How Does It Get Even Better Than This?”  And I love ruffling my ego’s feathers when things are going very well, and !I ask the question  ‘How does it get even better than this’…..   Who do I think I AM to want even more and even better! 

14- Do a visualization or meditation practice that connects you with Source Energies, Your I AM or Higher Self.  Pause, breathe and rest in Presence/Awareness when things are easy and going well…..just 5 seconds : -).  I’ll happily email you my version of the I AM meditation.

15- Practice and cultivate BREATHING DEEPLY.  Stop periodically and take a few deep conscious breaths. Pause. All these will help you when things get sticky.

16 – Say yes instead of no!  Leap into something different and anticipate fun!

17- “I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears, or what they think.”  Rumi 

 “You are here for only one reason – to be your self.  Everyone else is taken”

18 - Share. Don’t compare.  You are a unique aspect of The Divine.  You are here to experience life in your own unique way and to share in your own perfect and unique way. No one else is here for the same reasons you are here – no one. Does the lily compare itself to the dragonfly or look to see how to grow by copying it?  

19 – Be Authentic, speak your truth and LET GO OF YOUR ATTACHMENT TO AN OUTCOME.

20- Cultivate tenderness and kindness towards your self.  This has been a most important and life/vibration changing master key for me. You’re doing the very best you can, always. 

21- Don’t believe your thoughts.  Another postit on my computer says:  “Really?”  Question your stories and limitations….  One of my favorites!  

22- You get to fill in this one.  I’m sure I’ve forgotten some and I would love to hear what you do that helps you that we can add to this list!!  Just email me at hedymiri@gmail.com 

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2- Miri Message:  WE’RE ALWAYS IN THE WAVES.    We are electromagnetic energy here in this form.  Electromagnetic and subject to all the electrical and magnetic energies around us.  We are always in the waves.  Sometimes the ocean is still and calm, sometimes gentle and sometimes the waves are huge and just knock us over… and we find ourselves free falling.  And we are also so much more than these electromagnetic energies……. And sometimes it is so challenging for the body, mind, emotional systems that we are. 

I always write to you in the hopes that what I share helps you see that you are not alone in your experiences, or broken..... allows you to open your heart more and more to you…..and see that transformation is possible, available and IS happening. This is a follow up to the miri message I sent last week…..where I wrote about feeling like I was being turned inside out.  Have a look if you’ve missed it. It’s posted just below this message.

It’s a week later and here’s what I see now about when the big waves come and I have that deeply unsettled feeling aka fear……when I feel like I have nothing to hold on to, no reference points, feel disconnected and fearful of the unknown and like I’m uncomfortably free falling (does free falling have to be uncomfortable – I guess so until it’s not)…...   It is only now that I remember the words of my teacher Adyashanti - the human is designed to pull away from, avoid, to contract from the unpleasant, disturbing, frightening uncomfortable sensations/experiences and to move towards and want to hold on to and repeat pleasant sensations/experiences.  SIMPLE – IT’S THE DESIGN. So next time…..can I remember to not be so frustrated with my self, to give more space to this natural response instead of having my usual internal dialogue about it, that includes the usual judgments and expectations for how I should be handling MY self through this onslaught of discomfort. Where did this expectation come from?  Really…..can you ever be totally prepared for when the waves come and knock you over?  Remembering……go with it….stop fighting the energies. ((A dear friend tells me that while I felt like I was being gently reassembled this past week…..she was still in the depths of the turmoil.  My compassionate loving kindness to you whatever place you’re in…..))   

It is only now that I truly understand the experience of the words – darkest before the dawn…..Darkest before the New Day, before the new energies take hold. This week has given me spaciousness and opportunity to deeply allow and more tenderly be with what is unfolding after last week’s crash and burn….. as I experience the phoenix rising.  What’s in me is a greater clarity and a determination to live as me – fully and freely.  Maybe that’s it – that simply – be me, and accept me fully and freely.  Allow and accept when I crash and burn, when I contract, when I’m in fear and accept and allow when I joyously soar. I AM all of this ….   I AM Consciousness/Awareness/The Divine and that’s only exactly what The Divine does with this human experience – allows it all, enjoys it all – because it is simply having experiences.  The Divine is here to experience it self in every way.  And while yes, we are The Divine......our design is to see and experience ourselves as the separate human self expanding and contracting.  

So it was a great week for me….I’m playing with the pot of gold after the rainbow of experiences.  I have greater clarity and perspectives, greater wisdom and my heart is opening ever wider to me and to every one : -) especially those who have triggered me.  More spaciousness, noticing and allowing without the commentary and judgment …. more present without the mind chatter …. More trust, more gratitude for everything and everyone- even the triggers…..and allowing the contraction when I think of the triggers! Oh, I love this deepening of allowing.  

I realize now that I was attached to a particular outcome after my honest conversation last week.  I did speak my truth; I was heard, and now there is seeing that I’m attached to things unfolding a particular way – I’m expecting my beliefs to be embraced as right and for my advice to be followed.  I don’t like seeing that.  I see my attachment.  And I’m just breathing and seeing and allowing……   

I have a postits on my computer  - one says “Naming it is Key.”  Being willing to say something out loud to a loving witness is often they key to our unraveling and dissolving that which has been held so tightly.  So thank you for being my witness.  I do see and acknowledge my attachments.  Yes, naming and acknowledging what is honestly true in the moment are key. 

And now….my knowing knows that by simply naming it, acknowledging it and allowing Grace to take care of it……Grace does most of the work to take me over the mountain where I will get to see how much of the attachment I have released.   It’s honestly already happening!!!  Our healing is multidimensional.  No need to ‘work it’.  Just honestly noticing, acknowledging, allowing what is to be there…….accepting and breathing and then go do something that feels fulfilling and joyous – like my writing these miri messages!  Thank you for being in my world.  I am here to support you during these shifts and changes. Please contact me to set up your session. I offer you Compassionate Presence, Intuitive Guidance and Energy Therapies including Reiki, Access Consciousness, EFT  to support your moving through and beyond your pains, struggles and stories, into the Light and Grace of your True Self.

Details coming for “LIVING GRACE and Every Day Miracles” Workshop  Sunday

July 28.     

I See You and I Love You….all of you.

Miri