Written
February 17, 2013
Beloved
– In
these Miri
Messages I share with you both my challenges and pains with the human experience
and my experiences as I transmute and transcend into higher vibrational
dimensions……. as we all receive and integrate our Divine Essence into our
bodies. May you remember that we are not separate; you are not alone.
2/15: “The world
is in a major "Shake Out" from the force of the 2012 Galactic Alignment, and
many of you are reporting feeling "letdown" after the great promise of this
momentous event. From the Diamond perspective, it is very clear that the
"Old
Ways
This VOID can be
misinterpreted as a "letdown" that "nothing is happening" when in fact, the most
profound things are happening deep within.” Jacqueline Joy, Diamond
Alignment
I liked reading this the other day
(Feb 15) because I have been feeling so different these past 2 months since Mid
Dec.……I’ve written about the quiet, the ability to trust and rest in spacious
allowing where it feels like nothing is happening…. and then a moment of feeling
like I want out, want to be done with the heaviness of this dimension. Many of
us are wondering what’s going on……. wondering about this call to deep rest (or
am I depressed) and releasing expectations about how things should be looking,
what should be happening in our lives, how we should be feeling, what we should
be Doing. Ah – the shoulds
Being and Receiving and
Transmuting. That’s what we’ve been doing. We are remembering how to BE and
in that Being we are able to open and receive more of our Divine Energies. And
remember that it is difficult to hear and sense Presence/God if you keep running
around and doing all that worrying and thinking!
On reflection, I see so much
shifting in me. A big one is that I am moving from noticing, allowing,
accepting into LOVING ME. That’s a big thing to write to you. For the past few
years, I have been called to pay more attention to those parts of me that I
recoiled from, rejected or denied (our shadows)…… I was introduced to The Work
by Byron Katie. Katie’s first book is called Loving What Is. Loved the book,
disliked the title. That was too much for me. I wasn’t there. I couldn’t love
what is…….the best I could do was begin to notice, allow, and work on
accepting. But I surely couldn’t feel any big heart loving for those parts of
me I could barely acknowledge. Nope no loving what is, but definitely noticing,
allowing, more accepting…….
These past few years, there has
been an exponential shift into a greater acceptance of me, meaning all my
parts/characters of me - the actions, reactions, feelings including shame and
jealousy, memories, my thoughts that sometimes I’m too much, stories, behaviors,
etc all the ways that I show up, that I call ‘me’.
I became much better at
acknowledging and accepting…..but truth be told, gosh I’m tearing up with the
pain of this…..I could not say I loved me….all of me. And today – I am
discovering that Grace has opened a new path and placed me on it. I AM
beginning to feel a yearning to LOVE ME. Not just tolerating or accepting me,
but full open hearted I Love Me as I AM. I want to experience that in this lifetime. Imagine the possibility of having such
a deep acceptance of your self that you just love you….that one day you notice
that all the dark and heavy shaming, blaming, analyzing, recoiling, comparing
and judging is truly fading because The Light that I AM, that each one of us has
become so Bright.
I am not any different than you ~
I have had lots of trauma and pain in my life….a difficult childhood, where I
was not seen, loved the way I needed to be loved, heard, or supported as I
believed I needed. So for me, survival was about becoming like a chameleon……I
became what the others that I depended on for my ‘survival’ needed me to be, or
what I thought they needed me to be. It’s all done on an unconscious level at
the beginning of this ‘molding’ of a personality period…..I tried to figure out
how I needed to behave and show up for first my parents, then with ‘others’’ for
their love and acceptance. It’s called surviving in what felt like a basically
unsafe world (unsafe to the personality of me. I’m big on differentiating
between my ego/personality self and my Divine Self…..most of our lives have been
lived by our responding and reacting to life from our personality….remember
personality comes from the Greek word persona - mask. Oh the many masks and
costumes we have put on)
I gave me away, to get their
love. I pushed me down and disconnected. I didn’t have my voice, couldn’t
speak my truth, ask for what I wanted….actually didn’t even know what I was
feeling or what I really needed or wanted. Very disconnected from my authentic
self - body, emotions, mind, spirit.
So there I was…..and here I AM.
Many of us are experiencing alchemical healing and transformation as we receive
the energies of our Divine Selves into these holy vessels we call bodies.
Miracles, Grace and Love are available right here and now. Please DO what you
need to do to get out of your victimhood, limitations and your stories. You are
NOT any of that – Let’s stop living life in
reactivity.
Actually, if you just say to the
Universe with sincerity that you are ready to release these patterns and shift
into Love and Possibility then The Universe by its nature, MUST respond. Now it may not
respond in the way you’re thinking it should……!!
You are Love, Love Magnified. You are a most precious
and holy Spirit wanting to have this wild crazy human experience that comes with
a one way ticket that has recently been activated – a ticket taking you back
home - to realizing the Divine Being you have always been and to living life
from that realization and that embodiment of Divine Knowing. You are LOVE.
Nothing has ever been wrong, and there were no mistakes.
Ready to awaken and move out of the dream state? There is lots of support to help you shift your energies and vibration…..
I AM in Love with You ~ Remember,
we are to do this together….remember…… you are never
alone~
Miri