Friday, September 27, 2013

9/27  Intense Equinox Energies Subsiding
Beloved~    As always, I share these words with you in the hopes that you find support and encouragement and realize that you are not alone when it feels like you may have lost your wayI’ve lost sense of time…..was it this crazy before the Fall Equinox?  Did it get even more intense for you around the Equinox and this whole week?  I feel like it has now begun to settle back down.  I remember writing last year that this would be the year of emotion clearing and healing.  Well……no mistakes about this.  Whatever energies just opened for us….seems they found and we got snagged on any and all rough edges, sometimes the ones you thought you had already finished with.  Surprise, surprise.   Or not : -).  Seems we are done when we are done and that we have absolutely no say in what will show up for exploration and release. You mean we are releasing control too!  

I AM Purity – and if this is Truth…..then all these uncomfortable feelings and thoughts are a product of my choosing a human experience.  They are not the truth of who I AM…..why continue to believe them…….believe what they appear to say about me……and sometimes I still get hijacked by them.. 

I found my self talking to my self about feelings this week.  I was in Charlotte NC with my family, looking for a new home, looking to make some spiritual/business connections.  Fear, excitement, doubt and more…...  Excitement is easy to allow and embrace.  Fear and worry….my self talk at times was:  “Yes, I can feel this. Yes, I can allow this to be as it is as best I can…. or notice when I’m hijacked.”   

Allow, Notice.    I don’t want to talk my self out of how I’m feeling. I don’t want to compare or explain ad nauseum.  I just want to allow … and I CAN feel these feelings of fear, anxiety, doubt, helplessness now.  Sometimes I can remember to move out of my head and the monkey mind thinking and notice the sensations and contractions in my body.   I see that I don’t collapse or always respond like I did before when I had similar experiences and feelings.  Yes…..I can allow my self to feel now…..  I can check in with my body, find the tightness and contractions and breathe and allow….Sensations and vibrations moving through and out.  

And I’m remembering to be tender with me…..tender with that part of me that is scared. I absolutely love being tender with my self.  

Allowing our selves to feel opens us to life in such a different way.  I’m not closed in, shut down, ‘protecting’ my self, cut off from the flow of life and energies.  I’m opening up more and more and I AM  receiving the fullness and multi textured richness of life as I discover that I can allow my feelings….. And now, I discover that I can watch them….. body tight and contracting or sensations  just moving through without the labels of good or bad, acceptable or not.  BREATHE, BREATHE,  BREATHE.  And sometimes I can watch (the observer) my mind making up all kinds of explanations about what is going on around me that actually caused the fear to begin. It’s a ‘beginning’ for me with this type of deeper watching.  You can do it too because we’re experiencing the same contracted limited human self that is cracking open to reveal our True Self.  Look how much you’ve changed these 6 months!!!  Really - YOU – Look how you have changed!   

And I can promise you that the energies that are coming in after this turbulence ARE TOTALLY AMAZING…..       We will have opportunities to realize what has been cleansed from us by GRACE.

Ex – My office is overflowing everywhere (I know, no comments and judgements please) with all the stuff I have to tend to, organize, let go of.  I realize that I have to clean out my files…..and I’ve done so many workshops…..I didn’t want to look at those files from years past and let go….. of that me…..who I was then….. that created them……I wanted to take everything with me when I move and start my new life in Charlotte NC.  I ‘need’ this stuff from my past : -) 

Grace & Miracle – I just felt the realization last eve that I AM ready to go through my files lovingly and release what I have done & completed…..  Just like that the knowing came.  I know that I am now being prepared for, not the next chapter of my life – I’m starting a new book.  JUST LIKE YOU!   A NEW LIFE   I don’t need to bring the past with me.  I will absolutely have everything I need to create new and wonderful messages, workshops, classes in Charlotte and beyond. You too will have everything you need to create your new life.   I FEEL the readiness and excitement. Do you?  I didn’t want to think about clearing out my office before.  This evening I had the thought – I’m ready to go through the papers in the office.  WOW – so again… for the gifts coming now after these turbulent equinox energies …..GRACE……simply because YOU ARE SO LOVED.  We are all leaving our past behind.  OPEN to receiving all the energies and supports for you to create your life/heart’s dreams.   

It is our time now…..truly – to live our hearts’ knowing and dreams….. We will live them into this reality.  It’s what you came here for.  Stop playing small…..dare and leap for that is your truer nature – YOU ARE CREATORS.  Discover that you can have your hearts’ dreams.  Discover a world that you secretly ‘hoped’ would be there for you…….  YOU ARE SO LOVED.  Thank you…..thank you for being here, for staying the course…..SHINE BRIGHTLY NOW.  YOUR TWINKLES ARE UNIQUE AND MAGNIFICENT AND WE NEED THEM.  Please keep twinkling!  Come and see me for some support before I leave for N Carolina end of October.  Soul Infusion and Divine Alignment, Reiki, Spiritual Coaching will help you so much more easily shift your perspectives and release and balance your energies so that you too can live Magic, Miracles & Grace with Ease ~
I AM in Love with YOU


9/11/2013  Spider Web & Another Video - I Feel Therefore I AM Part 2
 What’s going on behind the curtain? We all want to SEE what’s going on, see the proof that the universe is actually for us… me!!!  Show me that I can let go, show me that I can trust,  that everything is actually working out perfectly and okay, and that I will be fine.   Sometimes I still have those thoughts…..and today I have this reminder.

The sun pours in through the window in my office in the late afternoon.  I pull the curtain closed so I can be more comfortable.  It’s been a couple of days and what a surprise when I pulled the curtain back and my eyes saw what the sunlight was now illuminating.  First I noticed a big ugly spider…..then on second glance I saw that the spider had woven a huge 2 foot web in front of the window.   It’s beautiful…and it is reminding me that behind the curtain, much construction is going on….much is happening even though we can’t see it.  Please trust some more….. please allow…. breathe…… go and play…… there is no need to worry (not that worry ever helps anyone) because behind the scenes much is being created and constructed….just for you!!!  No need to worry.  More and more every day I can feel the peace and the joy and the love.  More and more every day I can shift into these vibrations.  I was at the front desk at the gym the other day and it was pretty stressful… some point someone asked how I was.I noticed my spontaneous reply – I’m stressed and I’m great.  Both ~ And     

Choose to live Peace~Choose to keep your heart open.
My goodness… much resistance to posting my video on youtube for you.  Can I smile…..can I be gentle with these energies of resistance……can I breathe deeply…..detach just a little. 

Be Gentle with your self about what is showing up…..

Breathe Deeply

Can you detach and back up just a little bit and not take it so personally.  Can we remember to be like the sun and just watch the clouds come and go.

Repeat this sequence several times until your vibration has magically shifted : -)  …… or not!!!  If not, then you have something to look at……then you can ask – please show me what it is that I am not seeing clearly here.  Let go – do not go looking for the answer with your limited human mind.  Allow Your Divine Self/Presence to bring you what you need to understand differently.  Go play while construction is happening behind the curtains.    Oh, I just watched the video – I really like it!  I hope you do too.  Thanks for watching and being here with me.

I Feel Therefore I AM part 2         (remember to let it start and run about 10 seconds, press pause and wait a couple of minutes and then let it run so it plays through easily : -)  

I AM in Love with YOU

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Beloved ~  I Feel Therefore I AM
Do we really have a choice about what we are feeling? Descartes said "I think therefore I am." Even though I have a very active mind, I would have to say that my emotions and feelings have often held me captive.... hence, I feel, therefore I am. AND I see that with all the energy shifts unfolding, things are different now and I very often actually do have a choice about being hijacked by my feelings - or not. I do have a choice about being hijacked and entangled - or not! Sometimes : -) …and more and more often now.

I’m feeling a funny bit of scared and some excitement because I am being carried by this energy of ‘make videos and post them on youtube’. 
I hope you find these videos as supportive, loving and informative as the written messages…..catalysts to support you in your evolution. The only constant is change and so come join me on my Magic Carpet ride.
This video is about I feel, therefore I am.
  **Please press play and let it go for about 10 seconds. Then hit pause and let the entire video upload….a few minutes. Then hit play again. This will allow your computer to play it all the way through without the stops and starts. I know the volume is soft....I'm working on it : -). 
Love I AM

Sunday, September 8, 2013

I was sitting on the floor in my office this morning and I glanced over……at this printed page from a Miri Message that ‘happened’ to be on the floor next to me.  It felt right to share it with you again.  Written 1 ¾ years ago…..and the message is still so appropriate. 

The Jewish New Year begins tomorrow eve.  May we live Namaste’~  The Divine in Me sees The Divine in You, as You.  “I Am God is not blasphemy.  It is your identity.”  Wayne Dyer.
I AM in Love with You

12/1/2012  Beloved~
I was reading a message from Beyond Awakenings….and  reading the lineup of the teachers/leaders/gurus that would be speaking and I had this thought– please let’s be done with that.  

By that, I mean what we’ve all be doing - looking to find just the right teacher with just the right message that allows us to release all the misunderstandings and pain we’ve been holding onto.  I listen to them too….and they do help me remember and also some of these teachers, like Panache Desai, carry such a beautiful high heart vibration that by simply listening, your vibration and consciousness is changed and raised.  And then we turn a corner and it seems that our old life in the here and now comes back….though not in the same old way!  Again please honestly look and see how much you have changed! 
I digress…….because what I want to share is that the very best medicine is to discover that within you, Love is and has always been.  Actually, the medicine we’re searching for isn’t the most correct method or the latest teaching or the love and acceptance from another….  the Love and Acceptance of your self by your Self.   

Go within……honor what is there.  No one knows your truth, your reasons for all the experiences you’ve had……. as you do.  You do have the keys and the solutions to unlock the doors you have fastened shut and purposefully denied yourself access to….until just the right Divine Holy Moment which, if you’re reading this……is Now, My Beloved.    

It is time now…..for you to stay in Your Divine Lane ….ReDiscover, ReClaim and BE YOU. Fall in Love with You.  Remembering that we are all holy manifestations playing here ….  No matter who and what we appear as….still pushing each others buttons…. triggering each other to remembering that we are not our reactive responses…….we ARE HOME, THE LIGHT DIVINE. 

Nothing is what is seems to be, nothing is as your human mind would understand it.  That which is irritating you (a little or a lot!)  is helping you to break apart and burst open…. to reveal Golden Light such as you have not experienced until now…….   That which is still irritating you, is like the pearl in the oyster…..all that irritation….. it is to gift you with the pearl of Magic, Miracles and such Grace.  

So please be patient with your human self and its limitations, its irritations, its tendency to self blame and judge….to resist and whatever else it does.  It is NOT about you Beloved.  Does the magnificent beautiful pearl forming in the oyster have any idea what all that irritation is really about, what it is about to become (just like the caterpillar transforming into the butterfly).  Again remember please that your human mind is limited (by design) and therefore it is not able to see the bigger picture that is unfolding.
Each time I am about to birth yet another pearl…..each time I find my self in this closed dark shell, experiencing all these thoughts, feelings and irritations, urrgggh……   I see that I just can’t not be irritated.  Of course – and I’m smiling now as I type these words.  While truly it has gotten easier and faster - this time that we need to spend in the dark and fertile tomb….. the tomb that is actually a womb……the tomb becomes the womb where I give birth to an ever greater expanded creative life – 
Irritation is a holy facet of this human experience – Irritation is what brings forth the pearl in the oyster’s shell. It is the searing fire that destroys …so that the phoenix may rise from the ashes.  So it’s ok, it’s perfect…..please stop judging your self…..can you open your arms just a little bit and embrace your self…..and maybe a little more, for your self…… 

After my return from my wonderful family Thanksgiving gathering on the beach in warm sunny Ft Lauderdale, I surprisingly found my self crying ….crying from a very deep place and I just allowed the sobs to come up and release ….. I love the feelings of release and expansion that always follows these deep sobs.  I know these profound releases that come in the form of deep sobbing are cracking open the oyster’s shell…..   

Nothing is as it appears.  Nothing happens the way my personality would expect.   We are all experiencing ourselves now as even more sensitive, more aware, more centered, more peaceful, more joy, more allowing…… and more of our 'stuff’ is still coming up ….yes, we’re learning to live and allow all of it – …….. perfect and a little crazy making you might say!   

All those around us ….. every one we are worried about, pissed at, irritated with……each one is here to serve us in the grandest ways…..bringing us the greatest gifts.   

Breathe deeply……allow as best you can…….do what you need to do to care for you……be tender with you……watch how you talk to you…….. as we move more deeply into the energies of 12-12-12 and the solstice…..we are being bathed and rewired for delivery into The Promised Land.  It’s all about you Beloved…… You are The Divine LoveLight you have been waiting for.  It’s in you…….. and it is everyone around you….now.  Holy  Blessed  BEing ~ 
Loving You

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

August 27     Monkey Mind Judge  -   A Miri Message

I sit on the edge of the river bank, the river of life……  I sit on the edge of the river bank…..the water ripples and flows by….

 Shall I enter…..    I sit…..

 I watch the water flowing……..  It is lovely, enticing…..  I notice a deep hesitation to move, to let go and step into this flowing river of life.   I sit.   Is it fear?
I sit on the edge of the river bank.   I dip my toes into the water and then I pull them out, pulling my feet and my whole body back up onto dry land. 

 Is It Me that is holding me back……or is it The Timeless, The Great Mystery that is holding me there, still …..

And then at the perfect Divine Moment I see that there is an easy letting go; there is movement now…. Entering the flowing river once again… in Divine Time….  

What was all that monkey mind chatter judging my sitting on the river bank… thoughts telling me that I should be doing something already….. doing something different already.  Judgment.   Doubt.  All that mind stuff.  While all along The Divine Is in its perfect Knowing and Timing…..  

It IS SHE who holds me in place until the perfect Divine Moment.   It is always SHE who gently eases me down off the river bank. 

Monkey Mind Judge……..I see you.  And I surrender to that greater Knowing of Divine Time and Moment….the perfect Flow, Harmony, Happenings and Integration of All of Life.  MonkeyMindJudge… Ah, it’s okay…..I don’t pay you any more notice now…..don’t give you any more of my energies.  

May we give ourselves permission to pause, when it is the time for pausing….   remembering and knowing that we will be moved….and only moved when it is time for moving…    Can we relax just a little ….. remembering that knowing ……

And can we be in joy……. can we choose joy ….. in the midst of all this…..

I AM in Love with You

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Tuesday, July 16  
MIRI MESSAGE:  Father Issues ~ The Unraveling Continues~               
Grace is – touching the pain, feeling, without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again AND then this Grace delivers you a new canvas.  And it is a blank canvas….at last   you don’t have to live from your limitations, fears, traumas any more.  ….. you are ready to live from your True Divine Self – free, joyous, unlimited!

Beloved~  How can I create and hold a space of tenderness, wisdom, vulnerability and healing for you, if I haven’t gone in to the depths and my ‘stuff’my self…..with honesty,  allowing,  willingness,  and feeling the emotions that are coming up as best I can.  And so yesterday I was taken deep down into the shadows of my issues around control and the pain of having a dad who was of the generation of “I’m the dad so just do what I say.” …… of feeling invisible, not being truly heard, not feeling cared about or seen for who I was, not understanding what I was needing, not being allowed to take the time I needed for something…………fill in your blanks here. .  ((Please read on – this all does end with a very precious and wonderful gift!! And this is not about feeling sorry for me…..if you feel tender…..please feel tender towards your self if this is touching something in you))  

So yesterday I realized that a friend was pushing my control buttons…..I felt somehow like I was being pushed to do something I wasn’t sure I wanted to do……  And the Knowing was that this wasn’t about what was going on in the present moment with her.  There was something deep and ancient in me …….about feeling controlled and powerless, maybe helpless too…..being manipulated into doing something.  Ah, the victim…… but this is not the time for intellectual overlays.  This was a time to simply be present to exactly what I was feeling. 

I happened to be on the phone with a dear friend who was able to listen and I felt safe with her to go deeper……  I asked out loud – what is this controlling stuff really about and the next words that came out of my mouth were – oh, this is about my dad and his controlling, sometimes angry and insensitive ways.  My dad - I remembered our last conversation before he left this world…..  I was 15 and he was getting ready to drive back to work and he said – ‘Oh, you’re off next week – you’ll come into the store and help me out.  And I replied No……  And we argued back and forth…..him trying to control and enforce, me resisting and rebelling.  He left saying something like we’ll see about that.   Our last words….. He died in a car accident that night. 

Having done my share  of therapy, EFT and healing inner child work, as I was sharing and processing with my friend yesterday…… I was drawn to connect with the little girl in me.  There are many aspects of ourselves we each hold.  This one was the age of a toddler.  And  I saw/felt  how she was so sad, overwhelmed and distraught with my dad’s manner of parenting.   

And I saw how this ‘control issue’ has so deeply colored my life. “Please see me.  Stop trying to just control me. You don’t see me.  I am invisible to you.   Stop telling me what to do.   Stop being so angry.”  Seeing and connecting with the feelings and the deep struggles and pain around ‘being controlled and not being seen’… Deep sobs arose as I cried out AS that little girl – “see me, why don’t you see me, why cant you see me, …. “   I allowed the pain I had buried to simply come up, move through me, up and out.  And within maybe 5 minutes the crying and shouting was completed…..  


I felt the quiet inside of my self……I felt lighter and more expanded.  I know I had not just taken the lid off for a bit.  This was not a bandaid….I knew I had released some deep big stuck ‘trauma’ and allowed energy and light and love to flow once more.    

Grace is – allowing and touching the pain, feeling, just touching the hem of the garment…….without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again …..and allowing Grace to unravel the threads and do most of the healing~

For self preservation, the walls go up and my walls were constructed of I won’t let you in….because it’s too painful to let you in.  I could sense the swords pointing out from my abdomen and belly areas.  And in keeping the pain and the controlling person out, I saw how I also kept the love out,….. and all the energies of life could not flow through me, as they were designed to.  And I also became ‘the controller” of my life, of others…….  And that’s another ‘story’.    

We all have our coping mechanisms that ultimately limit us and we end up with unsatisfying patterns in friendships, work and partnerships….   We yearn for more, for something different……to feel connection and connected and we are so closed up….  These structures have served us to now.  And we are being given the Gracefilled opportunity to release and allow ourselves to be transformed.   

Grace is – touching the pain, feeling, without having to go into the trauma and story over and over again AND then this Grace delivers you a new canvas.  And it is a blank canvas….finally you don’t have to live from your limitations, fears, traumas any more.  ….. you are ready to live from your True Divine Self – free, joyous, unlimited!


More of my walls and structures were collapsing yesterday.  The swords were dissolving. The unraveling of this core issue around control continued today…..and I know and trust in my Being that I am being completely gifted with the opportunity to finish this, and to experience and embody Grace.  Just like you…….  And I am so grateful for the ones who trigger me, who bring up my pain and confusion……unexpected, yet by Divine Appointment…….so that I can allow, feel embrace my self and transmute. 

I wish to walk undefended, open and honest and transparent in this world….allowing my Light and Love to shine as brightly as possible.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to release what I have been holding through so many lifetimes.  Just like you…….

I wanted you to know a little bit more about me……   Our stories and pain are so tender.  My experiences and pain allow me to offer you Compassionate Presence and Deep Listening… transforming……  I’m here for you.  Please come and see me… can come for a private session if the Living Grace Workshop doesn’t feel right.   You’re ready to be done with holding this pain, I know.  I will also help you connect with the little girl/boy who has been living in fear and easily teach you how to become the loving, totally present, listening  and attending parent they did not have…..   Discover how listening, truly listening and seeing your inner child is what is needed for healing to take place.  Grace awaits

What would it be like to become undefended to the flow of life……
Live in yes……thank you……. transparent…….Loving Grace
I See You, and I AM in Love with You



Monday, July 15, 2013

July 14   Beloved~

Part 1 – Easy Ways to Help Prepare Your Self for the Waves      
Part 2 - We’re always in the waves. 
It doesn’t seem to be that these influxes of energies will be stopping any time soon.  You can strengthen your Divine Connection during the easier in between periods and this will help you when you feel like you are freefalling, as you are changing from the caterpillar to the butterfly, from the carbon based human to crystalline/Christ energies.  Everything is already here for us……   Shift your vibration; shift your attention. 

Here are some suggestions:
1- Do the things that bring you joy.  This will balance your energies and actually changes the chemistry in your body, from all the stress stuff to the feel good stuff.

2- Spend time in nature.  If you can’t get outside then just google nature images.  It works! 

3- Play with puppies, kittens, babies.   Notice how much better and lighter you feel.  It’s all vibration…..and this will change yours so easily! 

4- Do something different.  Break the chain, even if it is taking a different route to the store.  It’s just a habit, and it’s a neural pathway. Doing something different also puts you in a ‘different opportunities’ mindset.

5-Appreciate the good.  They say we are hardwired to remember the painful and sad.  We actually need to consciously stop and spend some time savoring the good.

6-It’s worth repeating – Be in Gratitude as much as you can whenever you can. Find things to be grateful for; they are everywhere.  This one practice will change your life in ways we call ‘miracles’.

7- Hang out with people who make you feel good.  “Re-examine what you have been told.  Dismiss what offends your soul.”  Walt Whitman.  Give your self permission to stop hanging out with people who don’t feel good to be around, who aren’t supportive, who actually bring you down.

8- Meditate

9-Cultivate listening to your body and what it wants.  Cultivate listening to your emotions – they are messengers. Emotions may not be Highest Truth…..but they definitely are truths and messengers for each of us.   Cultivate listening to you and following through with what you need. 

10-The ego/mind’s job is to categorize, to protect, to analyze incoming information….all based on its/your past experiences and your beliefs.  It puts things into categories of good and bad, safe or not etc based on its history.  Sounds limiting, doesn’t it. 

Some describe the ego as a verb – it is either grasping for something or rejecting and resisting.  Look – wow, it’s true.  Higher Mind is open, curious, allowing. 

Open to Divine Mind. Simply ask to open……

11- Ask for assistance.  If you believe in angels, ask them for help with whatever you would like. Explore your resistance to receiving and play with receiving instead of always being in the safe seat of giving.  Receiving is more vulnerable….and you don’t have ‘the controls’  …..  Trust me, I know this one so well……
12- Smile – it sets off a set of chemical reactions in the body that are the feel good chemicals.   Try it…..see if you don’t feel different.

13- I love the Access Consciousness questions – “What Else is Possible?  How Does It Get Even Better Than This?”  And I love ruffling my ego’s feathers when things are going very well, and !I ask the question  ‘How does it get even better than this’…..   Who do I think I AM to want even more and even better! 

14- Do a visualization or meditation practice that connects you with Source Energies, Your I AM or Higher Self.  Pause, breathe and rest in Presence/Awareness when things are easy and going well…..just 5 seconds : -).  I’ll happily email you my version of the I AM meditation.

15- Practice and cultivate BREATHING DEEPLY.  Stop periodically and take a few deep conscious breaths. Pause. All these will help you when things get sticky.

16 – Say yes instead of no!  Leap into something different and anticipate fun!

17- “I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears, or what they think.”  Rumi 

 “You are here for only one reason – to be your self.  Everyone else is taken”

18 - Share. Don’t compare.  You are a unique aspect of The Divine.  You are here to experience life in your own unique way and to share in your own perfect and unique way. No one else is here for the same reasons you are here – no one. Does the lily compare itself to the dragonfly or look to see how to grow by copying it?  

19 – Be Authentic, speak your truth and LET GO OF YOUR ATTACHMENT TO AN OUTCOME.

20- Cultivate tenderness and kindness towards your self.  This has been a most important and life/vibration changing master key for me. You’re doing the very best you can, always. 

21- Don’t believe your thoughts.  Another postit on my computer says:  “Really?”  Question your stories and limitations….  One of my favorites!  

22- You get to fill in this one.  I’m sure I’ve forgotten some and I would love to hear what you do that helps you that we can add to this list!!  Just email me at 
2- Miri Message:  WE’RE ALWAYS IN THE WAVES.    We are electromagnetic energy here in this form.  Electromagnetic and subject to all the electrical and magnetic energies around us.  We are always in the waves.  Sometimes the ocean is still and calm, sometimes gentle and sometimes the waves are huge and just knock us over… and we find ourselves free falling.  And we are also so much more than these electromagnetic energies……. And sometimes it is so challenging for the body, mind, emotional systems that we are. 

I always write to you in the hopes that what I share helps you see that you are not alone in your experiences, or broken..... allows you to open your heart more and more to you…..and see that transformation is possible, available and IS happening. This is a follow up to the miri message I sent last week…..where I wrote about feeling like I was being turned inside out.  Have a look if you’ve missed it. It’s posted just below this message.

It’s a week later and here’s what I see now about when the big waves come and I have that deeply unsettled feeling aka fear……when I feel like I have nothing to hold on to, no reference points, feel disconnected and fearful of the unknown and like I’m uncomfortably free falling (does free falling have to be uncomfortable – I guess so until it’s not)…...   It is only now that I remember the words of my teacher Adyashanti - the human is designed to pull away from, avoid, to contract from the unpleasant, disturbing, frightening uncomfortable sensations/experiences and to move towards and want to hold on to and repeat pleasant sensations/experiences.  SIMPLE – IT’S THE DESIGN. So next time…..can I remember to not be so frustrated with my self, to give more space to this natural response instead of having my usual internal dialogue about it, that includes the usual judgments and expectations for how I should be handling MY self through this onslaught of discomfort. Where did this expectation come from?  Really…..can you ever be totally prepared for when the waves come and knock you over?  Remembering……go with it….stop fighting the energies. ((A dear friend tells me that while I felt like I was being gently reassembled this past week…..she was still in the depths of the turmoil.  My compassionate loving kindness to you whatever place you’re in…..))   

It is only now that I truly understand the experience of the words – darkest before the dawn…..Darkest before the New Day, before the new energies take hold. This week has given me spaciousness and opportunity to deeply allow and more tenderly be with what is unfolding after last week’s crash and burn….. as I experience the phoenix rising.  What’s in me is a greater clarity and a determination to live as me – fully and freely.  Maybe that’s it – that simply – be me, and accept me fully and freely.  Allow and accept when I crash and burn, when I contract, when I’m in fear and accept and allow when I joyously soar. I AM all of this ….   I AM Consciousness/Awareness/The Divine and that’s only exactly what The Divine does with this human experience – allows it all, enjoys it all – because it is simply having experiences.  The Divine is here to experience it self in every way.  And while yes, we are The Divine......our design is to see and experience ourselves as the separate human self expanding and contracting.  

So it was a great week for me….I’m playing with the pot of gold after the rainbow of experiences.  I have greater clarity and perspectives, greater wisdom and my heart is opening ever wider to me and to every one : -) especially those who have triggered me.  More spaciousness, noticing and allowing without the commentary and judgment …. more present without the mind chatter …. More trust, more gratitude for everything and everyone- even the triggers…..and allowing the contraction when I think of the triggers! Oh, I love this deepening of allowing.  

I realize now that I was attached to a particular outcome after my honest conversation last week.  I did speak my truth; I was heard, and now there is seeing that I’m attached to things unfolding a particular way – I’m expecting my beliefs to be embraced as right and for my advice to be followed.  I don’t like seeing that.  I see my attachment.  And I’m just breathing and seeing and allowing……   

I have a postits on my computer  - one says Naming it is Key.  Being willing to say something out loud to a loving witness is often they key to our unraveling and dissolving that which has been held so tightly.  So thank you for being my witness.  I do see and acknowledge my attachments.  Yes, naming and acknowledging what is honestly true in the moment are key. 

And now….my knowing knows that by simply naming it, acknowledging it and allowing Grace to take care of it……Grace does most of the work to take me over the mountain where I will get to see how much of the attachment I have released.   It’s honestly already happening!!!  Our healing is multidimensional.  No need to ‘work it’.  Just honestly noticing, acknowledging, allowing what is to be there…….accepting and breathing and then go do something that feels fulfilling and joyous – like my writing these miri messages!  Thank you for being in my world.  I am here to support you during these shifts and changes. Please contact me to set up your session. I offer you Compassionate Presence, Intuitive Guidance and Energy Therapies including Reiki, Access Consciousness, EFT  to support your moving through and beyond your pains, struggles and stories, into the Light and Grace of your True Self.

Details coming for “LIVING GRACE and Every Day Miracles” Workshop  Sunday
July 28.     

I See You and I Love You….all of you.

Saturday, July 13, 2013


Beloved ~   Lots of intense energies have been coming through since the solstice (intense energies, this feels like such a familiar phrase :-) ) especially last week…. wowsers!  And I’m reminding you that each of us experiences the energies differentlyFor some of you these latest waves were 'no big deal' and for some of us – it was just - Turning things inside out - What has been inside, in my subconscious, unconscious, buried, what I didnt want to/couldn’t acknowledge or especially what I didnt want to FEEL......was revealed……. And there was no ‘escape’.  And we were feeling the discomfort! 
It is our personal stuff that’s up for releasing and transforming, and also alot of what we are experiencing and feeling is the collective - humanity's discomforts turned inside out..... the fear, the uncertainty, anxiety, anger, rage, guilt, shame, pain, the limitations, dramas, stories and the traumatic experiences that we have not yet processed and moved through.  And we had no place to hide…..
Some had a clear understanding of what needed to be looked at or felt and some just felt uggghhhhh and grrrrrrrhhhh....
Whatever you've been working on or need to work on, acknowledge and especially allow your self to FEEL - the Light of Divine Love was shining on it and it felt uncomfortable.  Our pain was showing itself so that we would finally stop denying what we are feeling.  Our insides were turned out and revealed to us. 
So this is what I first wrote about my discomforts during the week:  For all ‘the work’ I’ve done…..I still notice the resistance, the no, the self judgment and the thinking that I should be doing something differently so this wouldn’t be happening, the ‘trying to fix’ and understand what my mind could not get clarity on……. instead of simply allowing the discomfort, leaning in and saying yes…...  I did not experience my self as the sun, watching deeply penetrating storms passing through, as I continued to be the sun….. aka resting as Presence Awareness.
And at midweek I said forget all this spiritual stuff – I’m just going to rent a couple of movies and chill….so chill and laugh I did.  Probably the best thing I could have done to get me out of my ego self and my human mind. (Oh yes….”now” I’m remembering the suggestion that doing things that place us in joy is the most beneficial thing we can do. Some part of me did remember that wisdom……)
And you know what…allowing me to write to you allows me to see what a BS story I have going about how I was during this discomfort. How I continue to ‘judge’ me as not there yet…… Grace and Love don’t require a 100% improvement and change of response in order to bring in the Grace & The Love.  TRUTH - I’ve changed a lot and so have you.  TRUTH – Through the turbulence I was less resistant, more feeling, more allowing, more self compassionate  – JUST LIKE YOU!  Yay us!  And the gifts of this latest wave of LoveLight are now rolling in for me -
As I look back to last week I see that as my insides were turned to the outside, as my ‘stuff’ was coming up….. as my vibration was shifting….. at the same time a GIFT of such TREMENDOUS GRACE was coming in… Of course during the turbulence I just couldn’t see what this was all for, what was being prepared behind the scenes.  It’s like climbing to the top of the mountain and passing through storms that block your visibility and make it uncomfortable along the way… and when it clears and you get to the magnificent vistas….it’s so worth it. 
At the end of this uncomfortable week I experienced what I realize now was such GRACE.  I had the MOST AMAZINGLY authentic conversation with someone who is very close to me.  This conversation had been rumbling around in me for a while and finally the pieces were in place for it to happen in the most magical and authentic way.  It just unfolded.  I was true to me and I spoke without the sugarcoating and holding back dance that I usually do….  The discomfort I experienced earlier in the week seemed to be shaking things up and setting things in place so that I could finally have this conversation which allowed me to bring forth my truth, my wisdom and my heart.. full on. The words just kept coming, the honesty just kept rolling out….
The release and the healing for me came from finally speaking my truth – AND being with someone who could hear me and receive me ….. though I wasn’t sure how they would respond.  There was a ‘fear’ that if I spoke my truths I would loose this person.  And the exact opposite happened.  Sometimes it works like this, and sometimes it doesn’t…. sometimes the relationship does complete. Either way it is Grace.
What was so different for me is that a part of me has danced very hard trying to figure out how to speak without offending or upsetting the other. And now I see I have recovered another part of me…..under the fear and the mask was my authentic voice, this voice that is clear, honest, vulnerable, wise and loving.  Now some of you may be surprised at how I have just described my fear and my mask because many of you reading this already saw a part of me that was authentic, wise and loving.…..and you also don’t know how much I have not had my voice – just like you.  It’s funny writing these Miri Messages.  I never know where they are going to end up. 
I learned well ~ how to mask my true voice, how to dance around what I really wanted to say because of all the fears, beliefs, stories and conditioning that were there ….. how to not feel what I was feeling.  I know some of you can appreciate my sharing about not being able to speak your truth.  And for others of you, no matter how honest you think you are – look again….. what parts of you are you still hiding?  Be Tender with your self please….remember you had to hide parts of your self for your survival, safety, for love……       And this week…..the rumblings seem to come and go….and I notice that I AM able to choose to rest in Presence more than ever before.  A worrisome thought arises – I breathe deeply and choose another thought …… It is a miracle, and it’s available for you.   Everything is an opportunity to return to Divine Alignment….everything, only everything.  More and more conscious choice is available…….. 

I am here to support you during these shifts and changes.  I offer you Compassionate Presence, Intuitive Guidance and Energy Therapies to support your moving through and beyond your pains, struggles and stories, into the Light and Grace of your True Self.  Please contact me to set up your appointment. 

Save the date for the next LIVING GRACE and EVERY DAY MIRACLES WORKSHOP – Sunday, July 28 ….and guess what it will be about:
THE GIFTS OF HONESTY & AUTHENTICITY – Speaking your Truth, Acknowledging your True Feelings
I See You and I Love You, all of you

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Summer Solstice Blessings    June 21, 2013
Beloved ~

I was going to finish this message with this short video…..I’m putting it at the beginning, so you don’t miss it.  ‘Imagine Peace’….. Feel….it’s a beautiful gift to feel….let your heart break open…
 Wow – it’s been up and down for many of us recently!  And the day of the Summer Solstice, the evening was absolutely perfect.  Clear, Present, Loving Energies, Gentle Breeze.  Well done Beloved – you helped create this Gracefilled Day. I hope you enjoyed the day and did something different and delicious for your self.  You deserve it!! 

What are you here for – to “be your self!!  Everyone else is taken!”   And now… remember how to accept all of you, because all of you…..every part of you is Divine, Holy, God.  There is nothing else.  You don’t have to do anything to earn this status.  It is who you are.  Let’s begin to move into and embody this Self Acceptance now….this Love of Self, of God in physical manifestation.  Holy, Pure, Perfect – You Are. 

Maybe I’ll write more tomorrow.  Today I just wanted to send you big hugs, celebrate YOU!!! and tell you how much I love you and admire your staying on this planet, during this crazy time of energies integrating, colliding, continuing to push up all the emotional and physical stuff that has been buried……it’s painful and challenging…..and still you stay! 

Thank you Mona and Ken for offering the labyrinth walk for the community at Baker Park.  It was exciting to see someone who had never walked a labyrinth before have the courage to walk it, to experience the loving support as she made her way along the pathways to arrive at the center - The Heart, The Beloved……Her Heart….because there is only One Heart…and it beats in all of us.  For me – the labyrinth walk was an opportunity to jump lanes.  I love jumping lanes, meaning doing something that allows me to show up totally different from who I believe my self to be, from how I’ve limited my self.  JUMP LANES – you can do it too! Just jump!

I’ve walked a labyrinth quite a bit.  The walking is a meditation … can be an opportunity to be in contemplation for what I want to receive, release, understand from another perspective, or sometimes it is just allowing myself to receive what is perfect for me….. AND THEN I come to the center of the labyrinth, The Divine, The Holy of Holies and bask in this Light, Divine Holy Energies. 

Most of us hesitate when we come to this place of Holiness in the center of the labyrinth.  Do we feel we are ready/worthy to move into the center and experience God’s Unconditional Love for us, or that we are ready to truly align with The Divine.   Most of us are still thinking - I still have something to do, to fix, to heal, to change, to get rid of, to grasp before I am worthy, ready…..before I am acceptable as I am.  This lack of self acceptance and the judgments against ourselves are so insidious…..we don’t even notice how constant this background noise of judgment is, and how it plays with us.  

Earlier in the day I had the impressions about my ‘jumping lanes’ at the labyrinth. The thought came - Forget all of this having to do something before I deem my self worthy/ready for Love (represented by walking the paths to the center).  No hesitation, asking, begging, questioning, because there is still something I think I don’t have correct, that I’m not okay ‘yet’, not ready yet for God acknowledgment.  
Tonight, for my self and for everyone there and for everyone on the planet - I was guided to walk directly into the center of the labyrinth, fully accepting my self as I am, as I AM, already Pure, Holy, Divine. Stand as the God that I AM, to stand there for everyone and claim me…. Walking without hesitation into the center, into the vibration of the Holy of Holies and as I did, I opened my arms wide and owned this!  I AM worthy now……I AM Holy, Pure, The Divine here, in this body.  Jesus, Buddha, you, me - same~same – one energy manifesting, vibrating in us, as us. ONE DIVINE ENERGY, Holy Pure – you, me, One Source Energy.

God in this body.  I just love ‘jumping lanes’… felt powerful and different and no more fooling around, hiding my self, making my self small, lying to me about me. I am LOVED and LOVABLE exactly as I AM!   JUST LIKE YOU!!  So let’s stop right now…..put your arms around your self and give your self a hug, a big yummy hug and say I Love You to your self.  Feel those arms hugging and loving you. Rock a little and say – well done Beloved, well done, I Love You. Take a deeeep breath.

I see You ~  I AM in Love with You


Sunday, June 9, 2013

May 30 - Allowing Emotions to Come Up

Beloved ~
I feel like a caterpillar in the cocoon these past few weeks….once again feeling like I prefer/actually need the quiet and my own company, not the crowds and being with people.  And like the caterpillar I feel things are definitely moving and changing……and I’m in the dark about the exact details…..

Do you feel like you/we are opening to something way different than we have ever experienced before……and you don’t really have details and specifics for this.....

What do I know about this phase…..and yet I sense something happening with those imaginal cells that they speak about when the caterpillar is in the cocoon.  Here is a beautiful short video from Deepak Chopra about imaginal cells,  butterflies and how these imaginal cells are about us too.
EMOTIONS - ENERGY IN MOTION. These times are about getting in touch with, allowing, being with and feeling our emotions.  We are healing the great disconnect that we have had with them…….and we have everything we need to accomplish this heartfelt and very important healing. 

All of the ways we go into thinking takes us away from feeling.  Notice this…..  it’s ok.  We’ve been wired to disconnect…..when emotions come up and we do not have permission to feel them or they feel too big, to scary to feel and we did not/ do not have someone to support us in navigating and allowing them…..we push them down deep inside ourselves and disconnect from them.  Life is meant to flow…..everything moves, changes…..  When we have not allowed these energies in motion – these emotions – to flow through and be felt ….yes, felt all the way without judgment, punishment, shame or story which is what stops the flow …..  these energies must, by our Divine Design Nature, come back up at some point for release … that they can once again join the flow of Light, of Energy.  Everything is meant to simply flow.

In my life so many ‘painfilled feelings’ are making their way up and into my awareness so I can finally say YES to them….. and be present to them.  I can now turn towards them and see what has been covered up. I can feel them and even ask them what they need……..    What am I ready to feel, to see. Byron Katie says her thoughts are like her children so for me these feelings/emotions are part of me, part of Awareness / Consciousness and I am no longer wanting to turn away from them…..and I am ‘usually’ no longer afraid to feel them (until one day something does grab me and it is very difficult….and even these, these too, I have discovered how to be tender with my self and with them and allow Grace to do the work.  That’s another message : -)  

So this morning I had another experience of a buried emotion wanting to come up.  Here’s what happened:  I caught a glimpse of an email as it was coming in …. It was in response to something I had done for another.  I did something for someone,  but I didn’t ask for permission,.  Rather I checked in intuitively and did what felt strongly like the right thing to do.  I wasn’t 100% sure how she would respond….and when I caught a few words in her email I defaulted to the place of I’m going to get into trouble here.  I observed the thinking and the heavy sinking feeling and I realized…. wow, so much a little child thought.  And I just watched it. 

I took a deep breath and distracted myself with something else.  A few minutes later I went to the email and with a little bit of trepidation and not breathing…I opened it up.  It was full of love and gratitude and of course I felt relieved and I also started to cry, actually to sob from some deep place in me.  The place that had been holding this constellation of pain energy that was all about ‘expecting to be yelled at.’  It was coming up in sobs…and I could be so tender with my self now instead of the shame or guilt or _____ I would have felt in the past.  The sobbing subsided.  Just allowing and watching and I noticed my arms moving around me, giving me a big hug.   Then more sobbing bubbled up.  I just allowed it.  No need to think and analyze what events caused it.  JUST let the emotion come up and allow it to run its course.  As I share this with you, I notice some sadness, some tenderness still ….. of course……  

Now I am in Love with this form of Release because this is Healing Presence and Love in action.  Just be present, allow what is coming up…..  let it come up so you can feel it through.  Let it all come up but do your best not to jump into analysis, looking for cause.  Just feel.   And then you too will notice a sense of completion.  This is all that is needed.  The constellation of stuck energy is unraveling and Grace will take care of the rest.  I have been given many opportunities to experience the deep healing and true and total shift that happens when I can finally be present, allow, feel …..just being with what is coming up without thought, analyses, judgments……   ((If this has been ‘stuck’ in me, obviously there were many times when I was blamed 'inappropriately' and this morning was my golden gracefilled opportunity to see this, to allow it……))  and maybe more will come up.  I don’t know.  Always something new Unfolds so that I can finally allow Love to Enfold me .   
I AM in Love with You~