Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Tenderness was the word from the meditation at the Healing Circle.  Tenderness. Begin simply..... to cultivate a noticing of how you still hold parts of your self outside your own acceptance ( we’re not talking about forgiving and loving, just noticing).   Parts that you continue to judge - what you  hate, dislike, feel inadequate, get angry or feel disappointed about, how you wished you would be able to show up differently, to act, look or feel differently……    All the ways that we do not give ourselves permission to be or to feel. 

Begin with just noticing when we disconnect from something coming up inside of us, separating and judging it as not ok, not right, not acceptable.  It happens so quickly. Just notice and then take a deep breath and then a few more deep breaths, staying in the body and just allowing……….  Maybe you can  think of something now that you don’t have permission for…..
Nothing to do.  In this moment just allow everything to be there exactly as it is….noticing how you close your own heart to parts of you.  Just allow and let it be – what you just cant open your heart to - a pattern, a habit, a reaction/response to someone or something,  something you totally don’t accept about your self, something you think you should have done or not done, how you show up, how you wish you showed up.  Just notice, without story or words.  Just watch and allow.  A few deep breaths……no words, no stories…….. 

Now bring your attention down into your heart and allow tenderness to arise within you.  How does tenderness feel in your heart?  Maybe spend a few moments gently gazing at the pictures here and breathe…..look from one to the other and breathe and allow tender feelings to arise in your heart.  Maybe nothing is happening in your heart or your body.  Maybe it feels locked up and frozen.  This is ok.   All we are doing is noticing – no words, no explanations, stories.  Gently watching ~ softness  ~  tenderness and breath…. for what ever is coming up……being vulnerable, soft just for this moment…..living in a different possibility. 

Now, come back to the part of you that you don’t accept/like………no words, no conversation….again just a few deep breaths, and then allow the tenderness to come up and move those tender feelings towards ‘that’  part of you that you can’t accept.   Hold it tenderly if you can.  Hold yourself tenderly.  Perhaps the tension in your body is beginning to relax and soften……maybe notice what is going on in your heart, your body.  Deep breaths.   All we are doing is noticing – no words, no explanations, stories……. Tenderness……..breath….softness……for what ever is coming up…… vulnerable.  Whatever is happening is perfect for you right now.

Let whatever feelings come up, come up and wash through.  I just did this as I was writing to you and some deep painfilled sobs came up.  How cleansing.  More space.  Deep breaths.  We’re all human.  We have all got human stuff still.  Closing your heart to something about your self is so painful.  What we don’t accept in ourselves we keep projecting onto others and disliking and judging them for it. 

Maybe next time you judge your self you can stop and breathe and try something different – just noticing without stories, allowing, softness, breathing, tenderness……see your self as The Angels see you……    Thank you for showing up as we continue to release and shift into heartcentered consciousness.  Some days are sweet, some days are challenging…..

Try a little tenderness ~ Share a little tenderness

All Love

Miri

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