Beloved ~
I feel like a caterpillar in the cocoon these past few weeks….once again feeling like I prefer/actually need the quiet and my own company, not the crowds and being with people. And like the caterpillar I feel things are definitely moving and changing……and I’m in the dark about the exact details…..
Do
you feel like you/we are opening to something way different than we have ever
experienced before……and you don’t really have details and specifics for this.....
What
do I know about this phase…..and yet I sense something happening with those
imaginal cells that they speak about when the caterpillar is in the
cocoon. Here is a beautiful short video from Deepak Chopra about imaginal
cells, butterflies and how these imaginal cells are about us too. https://www.deepakchopra.com/video/view/456/the_rabbit_hole__imagination_imaginal
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EMOTIONS - ENERGY IN MOTION. These times are about getting in touch with,
allowing, being with and feeling our emotions. We are healing the great
disconnect that we have had with them…….and we have everything we need to
accomplish this heartfelt and very important healing.
All
of the ways we go into thinking takes us away from feeling. Notice
this….. it’s ok. We’ve been wired to disconnect…..when emotions
come up and we do not have permission to feel them or they feel too big, to
scary to feel and we did not/ do not have someone to support us in navigating
and allowing them…..we push them down deep inside ourselves and disconnect from
them. Life is meant to flow…..everything moves, changes….. When we
have not allowed these energies in motion – these emotions – to flow through
and be felt ….yes, felt all the way without judgment, punishment, shame or story which is
what stops the flow ….. these energies must, by our Divine Design Nature,
come back up at some point for release …..so that they can once again join the flow of Light,
of Energy. Everything is meant to simply flow.
In
my life so many ‘painfilled feelings’ are making their way up and into my
awareness so I can finally say YES to them….. and be present to them. I
can now turn towards them and see what has been covered up. I can feel them and
even ask them what they need…….. What am I ready to feel, to
see. Byron Katie says her thoughts are like her children so for me these
feelings/emotions are part of me, part of Awareness / Consciousness and I am no
longer wanting to turn away from them…..and I am ‘usually’ no longer afraid to
feel them (until one day something does grab me and it is very difficult….and
even these, these too, I have discovered how to be tender with my self and with them and allow
Grace to do the work. That’s another message : -)
So
this morning I had another experience of a buried emotion wanting to come
up. Here’s what happened: I caught a glimpse of an email as it was
coming in …. It was in response to something I had done for another. I
did something for someone, but I didn’t ask for permission,. Rather I
checked in intuitively and did what felt strongly like the right thing to
do. I wasn’t 100% sure how she would respond….and when I caught a few
words in her email I defaulted to the place of I’m going to get into trouble
here. I observed the thinking and the heavy sinking feeling and I
realized…. wow, so much a little child thought. And I just watched
it.
I
took a deep breath and distracted myself with something else. A few
minutes later I went to the email and with a little bit of trepidation and not
breathing…I opened it up. It was full of love and gratitude and of course
I felt relieved and I also started to cry, actually to sob from some deep place
in me. The place that had been holding this constellation of pain energy
that was all about ‘expecting to be yelled at.’ It was coming up in
sobs…and I could be so tender with my self now instead of the shame or guilt or
_____ I would have felt in the past. The sobbing subsided. Just
allowing and watching and I noticed my arms moving around me, giving me a big
hug. Then more sobbing bubbled up. I just allowed it.
No need to think and analyze what events caused it. JUST let the emotion
come up and allow it to run its course. As I share this with you, I
notice some sadness, some tenderness still ….. of course……
Now
I am in Love with this form of Release because this is Healing Presence and
Love in action. Just be present, allow what is coming up….. let it
come up so you can feel it through. Let it all come up but do your best
not to jump into analysis, looking for cause. Just feel. And
then you too will notice a sense of completion. This is all that is
needed. The constellation of stuck energy is unraveling and Grace will
take care of the rest. I have been given many opportunities to experience
the deep healing and true and total shift that happens when I can finally be
present, allow, feel …..just being with what is coming up without thought,
analyses, judgments…… ((If this has been ‘stuck’ in me, obviously
there were many times when I was blamed 'inappropriately' and this morning was my
golden gracefilled opportunity to see this, to allow it……)) and maybe
more will come up. I don’t know. Always something new Unfolds so
that I can finally allow Love to Enfold me .
I AM in
Love with You~Miri
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